没有希望的人生像黑洞，永远逃脱不了黑暗。

有了希望就像黑夜多了繁星，满眼星光灿烂也就不孤寂了。

 

只是对希望的来临太迫切，太渴望，也会变得很累。

 

我就是充满希望，又对希望要求太迫切的人。

一方面对生活很满足，VT真的很不错，小小的语言困难也会在微笑中溶解；

一方面对远方的思念和依赖也在侵蚀着这宁静的生活。

 

13号他离开的时候，我感觉到一股被吸入黑洞的恐惧，在缠绕。

等待31号我去看他的时候，我感觉到原来被希望缠绕，也是让人窒息的。

这是我到美国以后唯一哭得两次。

 

像在追着骨头赶的小狗。

 

人就是这样不满足。

或者说是女人就是这样不满足。

或者说是我这样的人吧。

 

如果说以上是无病呻吟，请忽略不计。

所以我也忽略~

 

 

 

 

 Yesterday I went to the exercising room or let's call it body-building room.

 

In fact, I never went to the bodybuilding room before, even when I was in China. Although I admit that it is really popular these days in Shanghai, it was quite expensive and running along the playground laps was OK for me.

 

Now it is free so I wanna have a try. It is worthy to try! I ran 3.5 miles and I did not feel tired at all! But I was almost wet while I seldom sweat before.

 

Then I watched the basketball game organized by ACSS. It is really a fantastic game! I haven't watch a live game for a long time! Well done, boys!

 

After the exciting afternoon, I felt exhausted when got back home.

 

At first, I 'd like to go to bed early. But I cannot get to sleep for nearly two hours.

 

Nothing to worry about. Yet it is strange that I cannot calm down. Get up, open the window, change a direction to lay down~

Maybe I will get a doll to sleep with me.

 

Luckily no early classes this morning~

 

 

 

Thanks for my dear family and friends concern.

I have settled down in Virginia now. I really like the place, beautiful, lively and no bothering from cities.

 

My apt is nice and well-equipped which makes the life comfortable. I bought some plants and Yanjuan often bought flowers. If u come to our home, u will soon fall in love with it.

 

Cows, squirrels ,horses and even deer are often seen here.

 

great grass field, big trees, flowers everywhere, I really enjoy this.

 

My advisor seems a nice guy and so are the teachers here.

 

My English is poor, but I am confident to overcome.

 

The only thing is I miss you~ my family and friends, every day and night